Morning guys! (To be honest, I put the “!” but I am very solemn right now). I haven’t slept since 3 am and before that, I fell asleep around 12.. I’ve kind of been all over the place this week – having mood swings, conflict, seeing my ego rise, and being lost in my thoughts.. I’ve realized I’m somewhere in between an eternal state of confusion and an eternal state of understanding; but that is… The balance. Sometimes I feel like I neglect myself.. Sometimes I feel too lazy to dedicate and devote time, love, care, and compassion to myself. I think I am weighed down by the amount of time I spend blazing, my empathy, and my shadow self. I don’t think «eye» truly want to see myself shine and succeed. «eye» do, but I always second-guess myself. I always feel like there might be someone better.. More talented.
I’ve decided that I can’t let these feelings overcome me. I’ve decided that I won’t let these feelings become emotions. I’ve decided that rather than repressing these feelings, and embodying/internalizing them as a result, I will feel them in the moment, and try to understand why «eye» feel this way. I will stop beating myself up. I will stop bullying myself. These negative whispers will no longer affect me because «eye» will not let them. «eye» am stronger than my mind. «eye» am the controller.
«eye» am the creator.